Mar
17
When I was a kid, my mom used to take my brothers and I to the local library to pick out books to read. Most of the time, we got the usual stuff: kids’ stories, picture books, and some VHS videos.
Once in a while, however, I deviated from this pattern and borrowed card trick books […]
Mar
14
I can’t meet girls in Clubs to save my life…BPD and Shyness in the way
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Tonight, like many other nights, I went to dinner with my friend and business partner. Usually, if nothing else is planned, we go out afterwards by default. Typically he likes to go to “busy” bars, where there are plenty of people and girls to look at. I also like to go where there are others, […]
Mar
12
Negative Self Talk - Always living in the past - Always ruining the Future
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As I have written before, much of my BPD revolves around my self critic. This critic is aways hitting me from all angles about how I should act, what I should do, and what I should have done differently. This constant barrage of negativity kills my confidence and self esteem levels, not to mention my […]
Mar
9
A Dichotomoy of Relationship Confusion: “I hate you - don’t leave me”
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BPDs are notorious for their poor management of relationships. More specifically, BPDs cause friends, family, and partners significant emotional pain due to constant mood swings, tirades, acting out, and in extreme circumstances suicide attempts or physical violence.
At times, BPDs have intense and often uncontrolable hate and negative emotions towards a loved one. This may be […]