Mar
28
LOL Imagine if you saw that entry on eharmony.com - you’d probably run for the hills. That brief line sums me up, however, pretty well as far as dating site tag lines go.
At 29, I’m not sure how to measure myself or my life. I’ve been putting on weight lately, stopped excercising, go […]
Mar
25
In my blog bio, I listed the various meds that I take to treat my mental illness: Effexor, Welbutrin, Zyprexa, and Klonopin. Speaking broadly, these meds stave off depression, balance my moods, and quiet my mind. The Klonopin helps settle me down and also allows me to get sleep at nights, even if I’ve spent […]
Mar
22
Inescapable Emptiness
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Part of having BPD is a raw, gutteral feeling of emptiness: not knowing who you are, not knowing what to do, and not knowing what the significance of your life is. This feeling is constant and at times makes me feel utterly hopeless. At its worst extremes it makes me feel unable to get out […]
Mar
19
One of my desires / envies in my world of BPD issues was being born with a special talent.
By special talent, I mean the ability to compose symphonies at age 10, or the ability to do difficult mathematic equations in Kindgergarten, or the ability to run a sub 4 minute mile as a high school […]